Tara Hospitalised

*In case you are wondering, it's actually ice-pack on top of Tara's head

Tara was hospitalised again, this time, it was 4 days. It's so easy for the doctor to brush the diagnosis off as a "viral infection", and leave it as that. Both times Tara was admitted, I would tell Bob of the diagnosis and eerily, both times, the conversation between us was the same (and I wonder why he asked the same thing again).

"What the f*** is viral infection??"

"Infection caused by virus???"

"What f***ing virus is that??"

"Don't know. The doctor didn't say."

"How can the doctor don't know what virus? What the f*** he know then?" (pardon the language of a very anxious father)

"The doctor will need to do alot of specific tests before he will know what!!" *roll eyes*

The thing is, this time round, both me and Bob know that it's pretty serious. Tara did not respond to us well. When we carry her, she will stare blankly at us, no matter what we said and what we did, she would simply ignore. She was so weak, looked so tired and super cranky!

The nurse told me not to carry her. Not that I want to, she would bawled at the top of her weak voice when I moved an inch! And they told me not to cover her with blanket. Which mother in the world would leave their baby shivering and do nothing? Well, although I'm a 1/3 trained nurse (Only trained for 1 year, dropped out after that, but enough training to know basics), that doesn't mean that I can be "tough" and ignore my baby mah... I know it will increase her body temperature, but I just can't stand there and see her shiver. It's heart wrenching, and in my mother's-point-of-view, it's cruel. My friend said I'm stupid, damn, you are the stupid one! You are not a mother ok?

Irregardless, I applaud the team of TMC Level 4. You sincerely care for the patients, and we appreciate the help rendered during our stay there. You are truly the Thomson Angels. Whatever we ask, it was explained to us clearly. Whatever we ask for, you will bring it to us immediately. Even though we asked for Tara's temperature to be taken every half hour (almost!), you never complain and always do it with a smile.

Thanks to Dr Edmund Koh as well, you are always so cheerful, no matter what time of the day.

And thanks to the caterer of TMC, for the lip smacking and saliva-drooling food served nice and hot 6 times a day. YES! 6 times! You guys have truly ruined my diet! No lah, it's actually me, no matter how sad, depressed, worried or stressed, I will also have the appetite for food! I'm thinking of the food already! The very yummy papaya soup and the super delicious mee hoon soto! But no thank you, I don't mind not getting to eat the food anymore. No way I'm going back again. Enough of Thomson "Hotel" stay for me.

Finally, I wish to thank my colleagues as well, for being understanding during my long absence (considered long right?), and helping me to make sure every job run smoothly.