Too Caught Up..

This morning, I finally remembered to ask this friend of mine for her blog addy. I've been reading her blog since the day she stepped into blogosphere. Due to the very personal issues that she writes on her blog, I'm not able to tag her in my own blog, so everytime when I want to read, I gotta go to my Favorites folder to get the link to her blog.

But ever since I left my sale job (her blog link was in my old workplace's PC), and had my home PC "cleaned" up, I didn't read get to read her blog again. And I'm so caught up with my own life that I didn't even bothered asking for her blog addy until our recent gathering a couple of days ago.

So this morning, the minute I got the blog addy, I went in and read 9 months worth of entries! I read about her shopping sprees, about her work and about her relationship with HIM. I know of her extremely rocky relationship with HIM but then whenever we tried to talk to her, she seemed quite okay and was even laughing and horsing around the topic, so I never really know she felt so much misery until I read on the entries that I have missed out for 9 whole months.

I felt really bad that I didn't show my care and concern to her. As said, I'm too caught up with my own life. And now, I feel like slapping myself for missing out a large part of her life in the past 9 months. And not being there for her when she was down.

When I read about her sudden tears while waiting at the bus-stop on a cold rainy night, I just feel like I'm the biggest selfish idiot in the whole world. Where was I when she needed someone to talk to? Why didn't I even sms her once in a while to ask how is she? And why didn't I make more effort to meet her and even the rest of the gang more often?

Since the day Tara stepped into childcare, I've been really tied up. And Bob was travelling pretty often since beginning of the year and he would be out of town for a week, come home for a week before he flew off to some other places again. He wasn't in town 50% of the time so the other 50%, I was catching up on lost time and committed most of my free time to him, and the rest to catch up on some "ME" time. I know that these are all lousy excuses to neglect my friends. Frankly, if you ask me what actually have I done the past 5 months, I can't tell you either. This year pass by in a flash, and in another week, we are coming to the mid of the year!

Dear friend(s), since we live so near to each other, shall we just make more effort to meet up at least once/twice a month? I promise I'll be there everytime. And please tell me how you getting on first, before I start shooting my mouth. Cos you all know, once I start talking, it's difficult to make me stop. Hahaha..