When I decided to stop working, I thought that I will have more time to do things that I really love but wasn't able to when I'm still working. I thought I have ample time to scrap, tidy and clean up the house, cook meals, buy groceries, surf internet, do the laundry, on top of taking care of Tara.
I was wrong! I actually found it even harder to do anything! The only time I can take a breather was when Tara takes her nap in the afternoon. And it's a miserable short 1 hour nap. There's only enough time for me to check a couple of mails, tie up loose ends on the sprees I've organized, read a few posts at TSL and the next moment, the little gal would be standing beside me, up from her nap and asking for my attention.
My waking hours are 95% hers. We will watch VCDs together, sing and dance together, read together, do colouring together, take a walk in the garden together. Only when she hit the pillows, then I get my 5%. I can't stay up as late as I used to, cos I have to be alert and wide awake for her the next day. She zaps up my energy so by the end of the day, I will be dead tired to do anything else anyway. I'm still thinking of activities that she can do alone. Activities that's safe for her, as well as for the house. She did colouring alone once, and the colour pencils were thrown on the ground within minutes and without leaving some marks on her high chair first.
And since I've stopped working, everyday is packed with activities. Birthday party, dinners, visiting etc, there isn't a day I can be home for the whole day.
I need time to scrap! Lots of things that I want to scrap.
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