To have or not to have

Last night, Bob and I were discussing our plans.

To have or not to have. Baby number 2, that is.

There were a lot of factors to consider. Factors like, who's gonna take care of No.2? And Tara? My mum? She's not that willing to look after Tara sometimes, I feel. So who else? Send Tara to a full time child care and get Mum to look after No.2? Bob is only willing to send Tara to a really good one if that's the case and it's gonna set him back about $800 a month, I thought he's crazy. Besides, we need to pay Mum for looking after no.2 and a part time cleaning lady for the house chores too. And that's gonna be hefty!

I told him since he's so willing to fork out so much, we might as well spend $500 plus (besides the initial costs) to get a maid and another $300 plus to get Tara in a regular playgroup or something. But this is something I need to check. Now I don't even know how much it will cost to send Tara to such playgroup. Bob's very particular about the school so it might not be that affordable. As for the maid, I will have someone keeping the house in order every day. Why not right?

And I don't feel safe having a maid alone with 2 kids so I told Bob we might need to get my MIL to stay over permanently, something which I might not look forward to, but it's the most ideal solution. And I'm always not that keen having strangers in the house. So I really need some getting used to with the maid around.

And there comes another headache. How to allocate the rooms? Who's going to sleep where? Remember I have only 1 guest room available? And it's taken by my PILs? I told Bob we might have to let Tara continue sleeping with us till she's max 6 years old and till then, we can think of how to create a additional room. Cos now, it's not easy to have one. Lots of factors to consider too. We might have the maid sleeping in our current study. And where does the desktop and printers go? To our room I guess. How about my scrapping stuff? I don't know man!

And nope, if you are thinking of that. I don't intend to be a full time SAHM for now. I'm looking out for jobs already. Why? I still prefer to be financially independent. I need the money for my addiction!

And till all these are ironed out. I'm holding plans for no. 2.